When I’m living a depression, I want to think it is not in vain and that it serves a greater purpose. But the truth is that they don’t. Sometimes they only debilitate me for several days, weeks, or months.
During that time darkness is only darkness. Pain is only pain. Depressions are only depressions. And as I am fighting to get through each and every day, I look for the light at the end of the tunnel – for hope. Hope in the form of meaning, because as a bipolar person, episodes of depression will be a constant factor in my life.
And such is the human condition to try to find meaning in all.
Yet, not all has to have meaning and a greater purpose. Some experiences are only meant to be. Period. They are not meant to teach us a greater lesson or provide us with deeper insight.
They just come and go. Come and go. Come and go.
The Corridor
Beyond the stairway,
along a corridor of broken doors
lies Hope in rubble.
O, mighty someone shine
a light on its wretched skin
that in darkness it’s paleness,
opaque, no longer glows because
its darkness is only darkness,
its pain is only pain.
And all that crumbled within
rests shattered, in pieces,
along the corridor of long-forgotten days.
In this place where night resides,
there is a but a light - far far away,
toward the end.
And in the most ironic fashion,
in a cruel sort of way,
the light to Hope,
the path of Loss
it illuminates.
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